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"The whole top of the lodge is covered, except for a very small opening. The glowing embers on the floor are spread out into a pattern, the pattern of an eagle. Now someone comes in dressed as a large eagle, a headdress covering their whole head, feathers hanging all over their arms like wings, and a large bustle for a tail. The women are chanting very quietly as that eagle dancer floats around the fire pit in a circle, counter-clockwise. The light is very dim and we cannot see details, so that person becomes an eagle for us, flying around inside that lodge.- | - | - | - | - | - | - | - | - | - | - | - | - | - | - | - | - | - | - | - |"As the dancer spins and dances counter-clockwise around the fire, the smoke in the room begins to spiral up to the ceiling, up to the roof, up to that small hole. We are all spiraling down a chamber once again, deeper than the deepest hole we have ever been in in our lives. It feels like we are in another world now. It is very dark and very quiet. Even though this person is still dancing, we can't hear a thing.
"The old woman's voice speaks to us very rapidly, then she lets out a yell. It sends a shock wave through us, and we pop into another room more brightly lit, a golden color. Within that room, another much older woman is standing, talking to us inside our own minds. Since we don't know Hopi, she looks at us and points off to her right.
"We look in that direction and see a man and a woman standing there. They are all golden color and their hands are joined. The energy surrounding their bodies is combined into one form, one egg-shaped form. As they let go of their hands, their shape remains as one. And as they step apart from each other, one back and one forward, their egg-shaped energy form is still around both of them, but it's much larger now. The color in this room was a golden color, but now it changes to a reddish color. Orange, I'd say.
"The expressions on their faces change as they come back together. Mistrust is on their faces. Their egg-shaped form was whole, but now it's changing and becomes two individual forms. Now they are only connected to each other from their navel down to their crotch by threads of energy that are murky orange and a dull, dark red. Their entire bodies are not conjoined in the energy of that golden light anymore.
"Now that woman and that man are lifting their energy up to their diaphragm, and the color of those energy threads change to a kind of yellow color. Then they raise it to their hearts and the threads become green. They raise it to their throats and the threads become blue. Now they raise their energy so the threads are connecting their minds, just above the bridge of the nose. And there the threads are a pinkish-lavender color. When they join at that level, their two energy bodies become one again, and all the colors become brighter. They smile at each other and take each other's hands, and out the top of their heads comes a fountain of light... sparkling gold and silver with threads of blue and lavender, green and red and yellow... all colors. Then those threads cover their one energy body again.
"Now this woman in energy body form begins speaking to us. Her words are coming out of her throat and heart and forehead, rather than her mouth. Streamers of color are being projected into our hearts. As she does this, we nearly fall over from the love of it. Such pure energy of love... the world has little known.
"While in this exquisite state of love, we see that we are spiritual beings, and we see that our separation from each other is only due to the confusion of our senses while we are in the body. The act of taking a body means forgetting what we are. The act of making love and having children is a further forgetting of what we are. But through the hardships of life, we are brought back to this memory of ourselves as pure love... as pure energy."
With eyes still closed, Shuhinono asked, "Smiling White Hair, are you in this kiva with me? I feel you here. What do you see?"
A faint voice said, "Yes, I'm here. I'm looking at the radiance of that man and that woman together. I'm seeing that our thoughts affect our energy. As I think a certain thought, the energy within my form moves. I am also seeing that my mind does not like to have the awareness of this in itself. It's trying to run and pretend that it doesn't know what it's doing. I see that there are two or three of me doing different things at the same time. And as I do this, I see that man and woman mirror my thoughts and show me what my thinking does to the energy body. I see this man looks as if he is two different people, and instead of there being the single light body, there are threads of different colors moving throughout him as a result of his thinking, as a result of my thinking. And I see the confusion on the woman's face and the confusion in her energy body, as she is trying to figure out which one of him she is talking to. I see she becomes afraid, then splits herself. I see that we are all joined in love as a natural state of being joined to all living things. And I see that it is only our mind, by itself, that searches for the answer of what we are but cannot find the answer alone. I see that the mind cannot be by itself and know wholeness. I see that it must return to wholeness, and I see that this is the only sickness there is. This is where all sickness begins, this splitting off of ourselves in response to confusion or fear."
There was a long pause and Shuhinono asked, "What else do you see?"
Smiling White Hair said, "They are copulating. I see their energies join, but they are joined only at their sexual centers by those red fibers. I don't see the other energy centers join. Now they are talking, and I see their hearts join and their throats join. Now their minds are joined, and now their energy bodies are together again as one. I see by this simple act of making love with their whole being, not just with their sexual centers, that they are in harmony with each other again, and share love and respect and trust."
There was another short pause, then Smiling White Hair spoke again. "Now it's as if it is the next day. I see they are still joined at their hearts and at their sexual centers. But I see that confusion has entered again because their minds are not still joined. I see that sex is not enough to keep minds joined. I see that it is only meaningful communication with each other that keeps us joined in mind and in heart. It is what we say and do with each other that keeps our energy in balance or creates imbalance. And I see that both male and female are equal in their ability to return to harmony or to separate in confusion."
Shuhinono asked, "Do you see that the male is no different from the female, except in one significant point? And that is, the woman carries the seed of life, and within that seed is the memory of what love is. Man does not carry the seed and must look to the woman for that memory. This, the man learns through the woman, through his children, through his grandparents, through his tribe.
"And do you also see that a society that does not respect their women and honor them will not have peace and trust in their tribe? I see that a society that does not respect and honor their men will not have peace and trust either. I see Creator was very smart to make us need each other so much. And I see that Creator gave woman balance by putting truth in the mind of man, in front of love, to lead. Man must, then, look back to woman for the memory of that love for his truth to be true, since there can be no truth outside of love. The truth does not exist without love. Without love, there is only the separation caused by individual perception. Therefore, the Gateway to Knowledge is the joining of truth and love.
"I see that love not joined to the truth, if left to its own devices, would return too quickly from whence it came because it had no mirror to give itself knowledge. Love without truth would retreat too quickly to the Source and not extend itself through form into creation, because it has the power to do what it wills.
"So Creator put truth in front of love to lead. The woman, though she has the seed of the memory of love, was given an ounce of doubt. So Creator gave man the job of mirroring the truth for her. But if man does not see the love in the woman, then he surely will not see the truth within himself, nor will he be able to speak the truth to anyone. Man's difficulty, I see, is in not having the seed of love in the first place. And because he does not have the seed, he cannot not touch love directly, except through the heart and mind of a woman."
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